Time to let go of the past in all its forms.
You are probably not showing your true self at the moment. It seems your putting on a brave face and playing the game to fit in with others ideals.
Time to think about letting go of situations were others have had control of your life. What you do, wear, eat or control in some way.
The other type of letting go is with emotions. If the past has left you feeling depressed, restricted or isolated, then it’s time to think more positively. Very soon you will draw a line with the past because your getting ready to live the life you want.
You have a caring, reliable and balanced person entering your life soon. There can be love and harmony but you will have to decide if your ready for them. This is why your going through your changes now.
Accept love in and allow yourself to trust. Xx